Is it Friday yet?

The past two weeks or so I have not really been able to follow my normal eating plan due to feeling very ill and not holding food down or in some cases “in” (yeah, I know TMI but I have felt so bad I don’t care). Not sure what was going on, seems too long to be a stomach virus and no I don’t have a bun in the oven. Whatever it is I have my bad days and good ones too. For the most part just eating really bland and mostly liquids. Despite not feeling so great I have had a few days I got some exercise in. Nothing really adventurous but something is better than nothing, right?
On the fourth my aunt invited us over to where she was house sitting so we got a chance to see our little buga swim. We had a really good time. I love being in the water, but I forgot how tired I feel after wards. Me and my boys got a good nap that day (=

Nothing else new is really going on. The only thing of importance is today at work (which for you that are not aware I work for NASA under a contract at Johnson Space Center) is the last shuttle mission. We are currently awaiting the launch of Space Shuttle Atlantis. It’s one of those times you feel sad yet proud all at the same time!

Rain/Run/Finding Me

Yay….. we finally got some rain in the Houston area today. It is about time!!!!!! My plants must be so happy(=

I got up early enough this morning (4:45 a.m.) to ride my bike and walk with a good friend of mine. We had a good time and got a pretty good workout in. Today I took it a little easier since yesterday I REALLY pushed myself. Even though I live in Texas and it stays pretty dang hot, I prefer to be outdoors to workout. I use my spinning bike & treadmill several days a week but I never feel that I am getting the same amount of a workout in. Yesterday I got up, got dressed, stretched and planned on just walking but I felt so strong that I decided to run. I did 3 minutes of running with 1 minute walk intervals for 55 minutes. Afterwards I felt so incredible, nothing beats that feeling of pushing your body, hell your mind to do better. My friends and even my husband always tell me “you don’t have to push yourself, you just have to move”, and trust me I get what they are saying and I would never push myself where I would risk injury but I also don’t want to half-ass it either. When it comes to fitness I am an ALL or nothing kind of girl. When I wasn’t taking care of myself and felt sorry for myself because I was told that the cancer would kill me…… I got depressed and ate what I wanted and decided not to move. So now this is “ME” time……. I want to KNOW after I complete a workout that I gave it my all and that I’m one day closer to my goals. Plus sweating is the new Sexy right?

A Great Week

I could not have dreamed for a better week than the one I had last week. It’s no secret that I have dropped off the band wagon a time or two or three. I enjoy eating healthy for the most part but I do have a hard time in social settings or like yesterday when I was eating a fairly bland dinner that I wasn’t really excited about and my husband ate a grilled rib-eye steak, fully loaded baked potato, grilled corn and sautéed onions in front of me. Now don’t get me wrong I usually don’t mind and don’t expect my family to eat the same as myself but man it smelt so good! I really had a moment I wanted to tackle my husband and run with his plate like a wild dog. I ate my steamed veggies but then I just wanted to stab my husband with my fork for being blessed with a great metabolism and for never gaining weight. Do not worry know one was hurt during the consumption of dinner. Luckily the moment past and I finished my meal without cheating or acting out of impulse. I think having one moment out of the week and not acting on it is pretty awesome.

My eating plan has been so easy! That’s right I said easy. I have been following the “Reshape the Nation” fitness plan and using the “STAX” system. Now the meals are simple, simple….. not a lot going on with them but with my busy schedule it is a bonus. The containers are color coordinated to separate the carbs, proteins and veggies. Instead of counting calories or measuring servings the traditional way each container is labeled with weights, so you fill the food to your weight. This week I have lost 6 pounds and have never felt better.

I am full of energy and my workouts are proof of that. Every day last week I got up at 4:45 a.m. and looked forward to my workout. Monday, Wednesday and Friday I did jog/walk intervals. Tuesday and Thursday went for 12 mile bike ride and in the evening lifted weights.

This week I plan on sticking to my eating plan and push, push myself during my workouts! For the first time I really do believe I can do this. I have no choice, I need to do this.

I'm getting out of the 200s

For what...... the past year and half now I keep playing with 55lbs. Seriously I have gotten to about 5 lbs to go to my goal and then just something would derail me and I throw my hands up (mostly to my mouth with a piece of pizza) and just hurt myself more. I have all the right tools and the know how on what to do. Hell I'm one of those freaks that loves to exercise and sweat even in this Houston heat, so why do I let others and a few obstacles just ruin all my efforts.

I know I have been so hard on myself. No matter my size I have never felt beautiful, smart, talented or just worthy of anything good. I want that for others and I encourage it in others but why not myself? Instead I defeat myself with my own words.

The fact is in order for me to feel better I need to make the time for exercise & healthy eating. I'm happier and feel better about myself when I do. I currently am weighing 226lbs and within three months I want to be at 200lbs. I need to prove to myself that I can do this and that I am worthy of change.

I have even a bigger goal

Hey everyone. First, let me start by saying I should be able to commit to writing a post on more of a regular basis now. Instead of trying to post every day I think I will stick to at least two days a week, that way I don't get burned out.

I have been doing pretty well. Had a few slips but I am getting closer and closer to being under 200 lbs again, I am so freaking excitied. I have been following the Weight Watchers plan on-line and have been using my Body Bugg to help calculate the calories I am burning.

Another thing has happened to up my modivation. One of my closest friends is getting married in October (which we are more than happy to celebrate with because she found herself a Great Guy!! They make such a great couple), and they asked me to be a bridesmaid. Now I know she does not care about my weight but I do. I at least want to feel comfortable in the dress and make an effort to look the best as I can in it. So I have 6 months to work it out but I think that is plenty of time to do some damage (=

Weigh In Mondays

I have always liked making my weigh day on Mondays, mostly because it keeps me more in check for the weekends but also it's a good way to start fresh every week.

I lost a total of 4.6 lbs for my first week back on my routine. I was so excited this morning it was just the confirmation that I needed that hard work does pay-off.

I'm easing my way back into my workouts,but so far I'm feeling strong. I am really going to have to work to get back where I was a few months ago but I know that I can get there once again because I have already accomplished it before.

So onto to other news...... lets talk about what I am eating. I have never had a problem with eating veggies and even some fruit but I have a hard time with eating meat and laying off the carbs.

I realized long ago that I need carbs, but just the right amount and they have to be complex carbs. My favorite are sweet potatoes (well any type of potato will do but I have a tendency to drowned a regular spud with a half of tub of butter and cheese so I stay where I can be safe)

I know my trigger foods and at the risk of sounding like a cheesey cartoon.... knowing is half the battle. It really helps for me to identify where my week points are. I know how to eat in moderation so for these few items I have to plan it out and buy a small quanity or they don't come into the house.

I feel proud when we prepare a healthy well balanced meal, and I notice when we do we also create other good habits like eating at the table and not in front of the tv. We also clean the kitchen up together right after dinner........... I love that one.

Well every one I hope you had a great start to your week too!!!!!

Restarting

It has been several months since I have a last posted. I had some medical problems but am feeling much stronger and ready to get back into the swing of things. I must say the past few months have been very difficult for me and I got very depressed that I could not exercise.

When I go through these times I need to reach out to you guys more than ever. I think I shut down on everything because I'm so tired of cancer trying to rule my life. This past time I really just gave up. I accepted the bad reports from my doctors and let the pain rule me. In turn I hurt myself worse by not caring what food I shoved in my face because I felt helpless.

So as a good friend of mine stated, it's time to restart. In my line of work (IT support) the first thing I ask my customers is, "have you resarted?" Sometimes it's best just to start from the begining, and that is what I plan to do.

Yesterday I did the following:


BREAKFAST:
(2) Egg whites
grapes and slice banana
water

Lunch:
turkey sausage with whole grain pasta and peas
water

Dinner:
lean turkey breast on whole wheat bread and cherry tomatoes
water

Well thats it for now. Hope everyone enjoys the rest of their weekend!