Rain/Run/Finding Me

Yay….. we finally got some rain in the Houston area today. It is about time!!!!!! My plants must be so happy(=

I got up early enough this morning (4:45 a.m.) to ride my bike and walk with a good friend of mine. We had a good time and got a pretty good workout in. Today I took it a little easier since yesterday I REALLY pushed myself. Even though I live in Texas and it stays pretty dang hot, I prefer to be outdoors to workout. I use my spinning bike & treadmill several days a week but I never feel that I am getting the same amount of a workout in. Yesterday I got up, got dressed, stretched and planned on just walking but I felt so strong that I decided to run. I did 3 minutes of running with 1 minute walk intervals for 55 minutes. Afterwards I felt so incredible, nothing beats that feeling of pushing your body, hell your mind to do better. My friends and even my husband always tell me “you don’t have to push yourself, you just have to move”, and trust me I get what they are saying and I would never push myself where I would risk injury but I also don’t want to half-ass it either. When it comes to fitness I am an ALL or nothing kind of girl. When I wasn’t taking care of myself and felt sorry for myself because I was told that the cancer would kill me…… I got depressed and ate what I wanted and decided not to move. So now this is “ME” time……. I want to KNOW after I complete a workout that I gave it my all and that I’m one day closer to my goals. Plus sweating is the new Sexy right?

A Great Week

I could not have dreamed for a better week than the one I had last week. It’s no secret that I have dropped off the band wagon a time or two or three. I enjoy eating healthy for the most part but I do have a hard time in social settings or like yesterday when I was eating a fairly bland dinner that I wasn’t really excited about and my husband ate a grilled rib-eye steak, fully loaded baked potato, grilled corn and sautéed onions in front of me. Now don’t get me wrong I usually don’t mind and don’t expect my family to eat the same as myself but man it smelt so good! I really had a moment I wanted to tackle my husband and run with his plate like a wild dog. I ate my steamed veggies but then I just wanted to stab my husband with my fork for being blessed with a great metabolism and for never gaining weight. Do not worry know one was hurt during the consumption of dinner. Luckily the moment past and I finished my meal without cheating or acting out of impulse. I think having one moment out of the week and not acting on it is pretty awesome.

My eating plan has been so easy! That’s right I said easy. I have been following the “Reshape the Nation” fitness plan and using the “STAX” system. Now the meals are simple, simple….. not a lot going on with them but with my busy schedule it is a bonus. The containers are color coordinated to separate the carbs, proteins and veggies. Instead of counting calories or measuring servings the traditional way each container is labeled with weights, so you fill the food to your weight. This week I have lost 6 pounds and have never felt better.

I am full of energy and my workouts are proof of that. Every day last week I got up at 4:45 a.m. and looked forward to my workout. Monday, Wednesday and Friday I did jog/walk intervals. Tuesday and Thursday went for 12 mile bike ride and in the evening lifted weights.

This week I plan on sticking to my eating plan and push, push myself during my workouts! For the first time I really do believe I can do this. I have no choice, I need to do this.

I'm getting out of the 200s

For what...... the past year and half now I keep playing with 55lbs. Seriously I have gotten to about 5 lbs to go to my goal and then just something would derail me and I throw my hands up (mostly to my mouth with a piece of pizza) and just hurt myself more. I have all the right tools and the know how on what to do. Hell I'm one of those freaks that loves to exercise and sweat even in this Houston heat, so why do I let others and a few obstacles just ruin all my efforts.

I know I have been so hard on myself. No matter my size I have never felt beautiful, smart, talented or just worthy of anything good. I want that for others and I encourage it in others but why not myself? Instead I defeat myself with my own words.

The fact is in order for me to feel better I need to make the time for exercise & healthy eating. I'm happier and feel better about myself when I do. I currently am weighing 226lbs and within three months I want to be at 200lbs. I need to prove to myself that I can do this and that I am worthy of change.